Suffering

Vicktor Frankl said,
"In some ways suffering ceases to be suffering at the moment it finds a meaning."

Apparently mine has yet to find a meaning.
Horrifying.

Christianity

True Christian behavior is an amazing thing to experience.  The world would truly be free from it's miseries if we could all behave as Christ did.  Many do!
Blessing to me and to my life. 
Dear God, I hope I can be such a person.

disappointment

When I was young disappointing my dad was a worse punishment than the belt or anything else.  He is not here but the complete and utter failure and disappointment of my life is nearly unbearable.  Regardless of the situation or issue the disapointing of those closest to you is the greatest punishment of all.
Give me the belt, give me anything else.
This public lashing in front of and at the cost of those I love most is inhuman.
Walking, talking disappointment.

Low

Each new low seems to be just a stop on the way to complete devastation, desolation and misery.
Where does it end?

Snap Shots

I am beginning to take snap shots in my mind of the many things that I love.  I want them there in my mental memory chip that will bring hapiness and joy in the time to come. 
Hope the memory chip does not short out!