life's lemons

When life hands you lemons...

You eat them.

Bus, Bike Route

Devastation.
Nearly a year after my first seizure and many months since my last seizure yesterday was a starting over point.  I know that this is the way of life for epileptics.  However each time I go many days without any brain tremors I nearly forget and decide that it will never happen again.  Certainly not what I needed right now but perhaps I was getting a bit to big for my britches and needed to go back on the bus tour to remember what is important in life.
Luckily many of the bus routes run withing 200 yards of work and if the weather cooperates I can ride my bike here and back without any trouble. 
It sure is hard to make heads or tails of life's wims. I wish I could understand. 
Seems very random and chaotic; cruel even.

Life Happens

Sometimes life happens and it drives us to wonder about life.
Seems that life is easy to understand when it does what it is supposed to.
When it acts up do we believe what we said we believed?
Good Question!

Talent

Ever wish you were good at something?

I do.

Kind=Great

Seems that everytime  I get to the point where all is want is to tell the world to kiss my uh arm. I am set upon by great and kind people. 
Thanks to the great and kind people in the world.

I'm grateful

Lesson

If lusting after a women is tantamout to adultery is saying the f word in my head as bad as saying it out loud? If so I might as well start saying it out loud.
Wait; perhaps I missed the lesson there.

Miserable

Miserable.  Gone back on the generic and it is like starting all over on a new drug.  It seems that the generic and the name brand would not be so diferent as to cause side effect changes.  Just like when I started this drug the first time, I spend 3 or 4 hours a day feeling considerably under the influence. I have broken out is sores on a large portion of my body and I feel downright bleak.
Last time it took 3 or 4 weeks to even out.  I hope this time it goes faster.  I hate this.

By the way this weather knows what it is talking about.  Dark, cold and miserable!

Somebody

How do you continue to be somebody when you are officially nobody?

Friendly Tom

A friend gave me something to read and I read it. 

Perhaps that old Tom Cat that waits for me on the rock out front and haunts my nights might be on my side!

A good change of perspective for me.  It would be nice to have a friend on the long nights.

Pain

"Life is pain, Highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something."
Good line from a funny movie full of great lines. 
This one rings truer than I'd like.  There exists many types of pain, but it is a constant from day to day.
Can I cope?

Yetis

My latest therapy on days I'm having a bit of crazy is to go down in the bottoms and look for yetis. I haven't found any yet.

perfect blue buildings

It's 4:30 A.M. on a Tuesday.
It doesn't get much worse than this.
In beds in little rooms in buildings in the middle
Of these lives which are completely meaningless,
Help me stay awake, I'm fallin'...

Asleep in perfect blue buildings,
Beside the green apple sea,
I wanna get me a little oblivion, baby,
And try to keep myself away from me.

memory

Haven't written much lately.
Body working pretty well,
Brain not working at all. Lots of memory trouble.
Surviving.